I mean all these words. I sing all these verses. I cry all these tears. For you. Because I love you. I love all that you are, and I love you for who you are. I wanted to be something more for you. I don't know if I ever achieved that, but I can't let this go. You. You're my world. Hannah. You're my everything. In every dream you saved me. In every nightmare you cried for me. In every broken moment, you stood and fixed it. I feel myself sinking now. I never meant to hurt you, and I did. Something I even, had no control over it. Something I didn't even know was going on... and I can't take it back. I can't pretend like it didn't happen, or I knew what I was saying so I could go, "JUST KIDDING!" I can't do anything about it. The worst part is, I knew I would fail you. I knew it! I fail everyone in the end. I hate feeling so worthless. I'm at the beginning again, and I want to fight. I want to break down those walls, hold open my arms and smile, saying, 'Come here babygirl. Let me hold you.' Could this be out of line? To say you're the only one breaking me down like this. You're the only one I would take a shot on, keep me hanging on, so contagiously. I love you Hannah. I love you more than anything. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I can't go a single hour not thinking about you. But honestly. Right now. I feel dead. Wasted. I was only numb on one side. Now I can't feel anything. I have a soaked shirt right now. I can tell by my blurry vision peering at it. Tears. A tear stained face and broken eyes, staring lifeless at this screen, those tears ringing clear within my ears. Those tears I made you cry. Why? You don't deserve that babygirl. No more tears. Look to the skies. See this angel fly. Chris. Is it time for me to come yet? I can hear your laugh man. It's crystal clear. Alex. You look good. Johnny, long time no see. Synit. Why? Why me? I love her you guys. I love her with all that I am, and all that I'll ever be. I love her with all that I ever was. Nothing's changed. I don't have anyone else. I never did. She's all I want. All I need. I've been saying this since we started. But I kept telling myself she deserves better. Will she find it? I'm fighting for her. Does she want me to? I'm broken. It hurts. I've certaintly never felt this before. So many tears. I didn't know it was possible. The ground looks nice. I keep staring at it. Nothing else too interesting. Except for her... maybe this will hit me harder tomorrow. Maybe. Hopefully. Then I can scream to the skies and you can all watch this broken angel fly. Oh wait. I'm not angel. Nevermind.
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